The Last Few Moments
Friday, March 31, 2006
BB is sleeping while I am typing this. He must be exausted.
Been sleeping for only 4-5 hours everynight since the past few days. Considering the fact that he just finsihed working very hard not too long ago, I cant blame him for snoring away.
I am at BB's place, possibily for the very last time. I am sad.
But no one knows the extend of my sadness.
Wished I can tell somebody how I feel in actual fact instead of holding myself back all the time.
Perhaps because I am ashame of what I am doing.
That's why I can't bring myself sharing my personal problems with someone else.
Sigh...
Time flies, I can still remember how heart broken I was when I first learned about what gonna happen to me almost a month ago. While I am coping very badly towards whats happening I also try not to face the reality.
Which make things worst.
It is sad to look at myself and not being able to recognize who have I been lately. I've done unbelievable things, something I never thought of doing before; only to make things worst.
I should have know where I stand from the very begining.
Guess it is right when there are saying that when it's not yours, then it is not yours.
Where is mine then?
Where on earth are you now?
Can you come to me now?
Because I need you badly.
I do.
I don't know how long I can cope with this. I have not been able to think dtraight, sleep, eat and function properly, ever since someone decided she had enough.
Sigh...
Anyhow things goes, I wish for your happiness... Truly. *Kisses*
Deep inside me, I hope I'd meet you first next time, because thats how I lost this.
Last but not least, thank you BB. Thank you for everything you have done for me.
You will always remain as someone special in my heart. <3 :)
Been sleeping for only 4-5 hours everynight since the past few days. Considering the fact that he just finsihed working very hard not too long ago, I cant blame him for snoring away.
I am at BB's place, possibily for the very last time. I am sad.
But no one knows the extend of my sadness.
Wished I can tell somebody how I feel in actual fact instead of holding myself back all the time.
Perhaps because I am ashame of what I am doing.
That's why I can't bring myself sharing my personal problems with someone else.
Sigh...
Time flies, I can still remember how heart broken I was when I first learned about what gonna happen to me almost a month ago. While I am coping very badly towards whats happening I also try not to face the reality.
Which make things worst.
It is sad to look at myself and not being able to recognize who have I been lately. I've done unbelievable things, something I never thought of doing before; only to make things worst.
I should have know where I stand from the very begining.
Guess it is right when there are saying that when it's not yours, then it is not yours.
Where is mine then?
Where on earth are you now?
Can you come to me now?
Because I need you badly.
I do.
I don't know how long I can cope with this. I have not been able to think dtraight, sleep, eat and function properly, ever since someone decided she had enough.
Sigh...
Anyhow things goes, I wish for your happiness... Truly. *Kisses*
Deep inside me, I hope I'd meet you first next time, because thats how I lost this.
Last but not least, thank you BB. Thank you for everything you have done for me.
You will always remain as someone special in my heart. <3 :)
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on Friday, March 31, 2006 at 2:38 AM.
