It was A Great One
Friday, March 31, 2006
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Liu Xing
Born to Party,
Forced to Work.
The Last Few Moments
BB is sleeping while I am typing this. He must be exausted.
Been sleeping for only 4-5 hours everynight since the past few days. Considering the fact that he just finsihed working very hard not too long ago, I cant blame him for snoring away.
I am at BB's place, possibily for the very last time. I am sad.
But no one knows the extend of my sadness.
Wished I can tell somebody how I feel in actual fact instead of holding myself back all the time.
Perhaps because I am ashame of what I am doing.
That's why I can't bring myself sharing my personal problems with someone else.
Sigh...
Time flies, I can still remember how heart broken I was when I first learned about what gonna happen to me almost a month ago. While I am coping very badly towards whats happening I also try not to face the reality.
Which make things worst.
It is sad to look at myself and not being able to recognize who have I been lately. I've done unbelievable things, something I never thought of doing before; only to make things worst.
I should have know where I stand from the very begining.
Guess it is right when there are saying that when it's not yours, then it is not yours.
Where is mine then?
Where on earth are you now?
Can you come to me now?
Because I need you badly.
I do.
I don't know how long I can cope with this. I have not been able to think dtraight, sleep, eat and function properly, ever since someone decided she had enough.
Sigh...
Anyhow things goes, I wish for your happiness... Truly. *Kisses*
Deep inside me, I hope I'd meet you first next time, because thats how I lost this.
Last but not least, thank you BB. Thank you for everything you have done for me.
You will always remain as someone special in my heart. <3 :)
Been sleeping for only 4-5 hours everynight since the past few days. Considering the fact that he just finsihed working very hard not too long ago, I cant blame him for snoring away.
I am at BB's place, possibily for the very last time. I am sad.
But no one knows the extend of my sadness.
Wished I can tell somebody how I feel in actual fact instead of holding myself back all the time.
Perhaps because I am ashame of what I am doing.
That's why I can't bring myself sharing my personal problems with someone else.
Sigh...
Time flies, I can still remember how heart broken I was when I first learned about what gonna happen to me almost a month ago. While I am coping very badly towards whats happening I also try not to face the reality.
Which make things worst.
It is sad to look at myself and not being able to recognize who have I been lately. I've done unbelievable things, something I never thought of doing before; only to make things worst.
I should have know where I stand from the very begining.
Guess it is right when there are saying that when it's not yours, then it is not yours.
Where is mine then?
Where on earth are you now?
Can you come to me now?
Because I need you badly.
I do.
I don't know how long I can cope with this. I have not been able to think dtraight, sleep, eat and function properly, ever since someone decided she had enough.
Sigh...
Anyhow things goes, I wish for your happiness... Truly. *Kisses*
Deep inside me, I hope I'd meet you first next time, because thats how I lost this.
Last but not least, thank you BB. Thank you for everything you have done for me.
You will always remain as someone special in my heart. <3 :)
I can't sleep
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Because everytime I try shutting my eyes, I get flash backs.
It is scary.
I wonder how long this will last...
How long I can last...
It is scary.
I wonder how long this will last...
How long I can last...
Forward
Sunday, March 26, 2006
As I try to come with my life, I've learned that Yvonne is coming over to KL soon, sometimes in May most probably for the Malaysia Sale. Great! Now maybe she can pay me back money she owe me...
Or I'd make her pay when we are out party! Wahahahhaha...
Shaun coming over in middle June after he graduate for a weekend.
So, who else is coming over?
Come tell me,
I'd bring y'all out to party!
Just pay for me!!!
Hehehe...
Or I'd make her pay when we are out party! Wahahahhaha...
Shaun coming over in middle June after he graduate for a weekend.
So, who else is coming over?
Come tell me,
I'd bring y'all out to party!
Just pay for me!!!
Hehehe...
Ahhh...
I feel so much better 'tricking' myself into this lil white lies...
God damn it, I am such a shallow women.
How can anyone fall into such a stupid big white lies?
I feel better anyway thinking that I wouldn't end up being alone in the end of the day.
Yeah, I might die without a guy without around me.
So yes, anyone that comes into the picture is welcome.
Come on y'all!
Gosh!!! I feel so good already! :)
Swim Swim Swim and Party Party lives starts soon!
Party clothes back to work!
Get those high heels and black sexy socks out of my store!
Not forgetting, my bottles of perfume and cosmetics...
I'm so going to get those few MNG top I saw today if I have money with me!!!
Arrgghhh...!!!
MNG can wait! So can I! :)
Wanna bet and see how long I can last this way??
If you'd know me, you might end up winning alot of money!
God damn it, I am such a shallow women.
How can anyone fall into such a stupid big white lies?
I feel better anyway thinking that I wouldn't end up being alone in the end of the day.
Yeah, I might die without a guy without around me.
So yes, anyone that comes into the picture is welcome.
Come on y'all!
Gosh!!! I feel so good already! :)
Swim Swim Swim and Party Party lives starts soon!
Party clothes back to work!
Get those high heels and black sexy socks out of my store!
Not forgetting, my bottles of perfume and cosmetics...
I'm so going to get those few MNG top I saw today if I have money with me!!!
Arrgghhh...!!!
MNG can wait! So can I! :)
Wanna bet and see how long I can last this way??
If you'd know me, you might end up winning alot of money!
8 days to IT
Secretly, I am counting the days.
I am not prepared for it, but it doesn't seem like I have much choice.
I'd continue doing what I have to do.
Nothing can stop me from doing it.
No one can.
Not even YOU, you know who you are.
I am not prepared for it, but it doesn't seem like I have much choice.
I'd continue doing what I have to do.
Nothing can stop me from doing it.
No one can.
Not even YOU, you know who you are.
Leon
Saturday, March 25, 2006
I got to know a guy by the name of Leon today.
I don't know why, but it feels like it's important to write about him in my lil adobe.
Maybe it'd become a source of reference one day because I'd meet him soon.
Maybe it's just me,
I need a back up already.
Leon is a colleague of Steve (the bloody cc top),
They works in a travelling agency.
Leon travels regulary,
Tall and stocky,
Leon is good looking.
What matter most is, Leon likes me.
Guess I like being 'like'...
Being at home, not exposed to posibility of being 'like' sucks big cock.
Leon serve as a reminder that I am still likable...
Something I've long forgotten.
Gosh, he also reminds me that I need to loose weight! Hah!
Let's wait for another day to make sure that I'm all good to start working out again! :)
Wweeeee!!!
World, here I come!!!
P/S: Please treat me nicely as I am still in very much pain...
I don't know why, but it feels like it's important to write about him in my lil adobe.
Maybe it'd become a source of reference one day because I'd meet him soon.
Maybe it's just me,
I need a back up already.
Leon is a colleague of Steve (the bloody cc top),
They works in a travelling agency.
Leon travels regulary,
Tall and stocky,
Leon is good looking.
What matter most is, Leon likes me.
Guess I like being 'like'...
Being at home, not exposed to posibility of being 'like' sucks big cock.
Leon serve as a reminder that I am still likable...
Something I've long forgotten.
Gosh, he also reminds me that I need to loose weight! Hah!
Let's wait for another day to make sure that I'm all good to start working out again! :)
Wweeeee!!!
World, here I come!!!
P/S: Please treat me nicely as I am still in very much pain...
Missing The Days
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Gosh...
It hit me just like that...
I was going to off the computer when I suddenly misses the way BB make me kisses him thru the phone.
I normally laugh through it and then shyly (yah, I shy, ok?) give him a kiss but sometimes it wasn't loud enough so he'd make me repeat it.
I can't even remember the last time he did that to me.
And I am going to miss it so much...
Tears start filling my eyes already.
I better buzz of to complete Tong Tong's Magenta pillow...
Ya, I am making her a pillow...
:) Good night BB.
It hit me just like that...
I was going to off the computer when I suddenly misses the way BB make me kisses him thru the phone.
I normally laugh through it and then shyly (yah, I shy, ok?) give him a kiss but sometimes it wasn't loud enough so he'd make me repeat it.
I can't even remember the last time he did that to me.
And I am going to miss it so much...
Tears start filling my eyes already.
I better buzz of to complete Tong Tong's Magenta pillow...
Ya, I am making her a pillow...
:) Good night BB.
He Got Married A year Ago!
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Oh DAMN!... I was talking to the Andy and he told me he went to Shanghai for 10 days vacation. Then he added that they are celebrating their anniversary...
Then I start thinking, what kinda anniversary...?
Then it hit me that they got married a year ago! Damn!!!
It has been a year!
Time flies!
Then I start thinking, what kinda anniversary...?
Then it hit me that they got married a year ago! Damn!!!
It has been a year!
Time flies!
Someone Once Told Me
No men is worth your tears,
But once you find one that is,
He won't make you cry.
Sigh...
But once you find one that is,
He won't make you cry.
Sigh...
29 PICK UP LINES THAT MIGHT NOT WORK
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Awww... I saw this somewhere, and I simply love it! :) It was from some advertising guy. Now that explains why I took advertising, eh?
1. If you and I were squirrels, could I bust a nut in your hole?
2. I'd like to wrap your legs around my head and wear you like a feed bag.
3. If it's true that we are what we eat, I could be you by morning!
4. How do you like your eggs: poached, scrambled, or fertilized?
5. I was about to go masturbate and I needed a name to go with your face.
6. You are so fine that I'd eat your shit just to see where it came from.
7. My love for you is like diarrhea, I just can't hold it in.
8. Roses are red.Violets are blue.I like spaghetti. Let 's go fuck.
9. Is that a keg in your pants? 'Cause I would love to tap that ass!
10. If your right leg was Thanksgiving,and your left leg was Christmas, could I meet you between
the holidays?
11. You remind me of a championship bass, I don't know whether to mount you or eat you!
12. Your parents must! be retarded, because you are special.
13. Could I touch your belly button.....from the inside?
14. I'm not too good at algebra, but doesn't U+I = 69?
15. How about we play lion and lion tamer? You hold your mouth open, and I'll give you the meat.
16. Guy: "Would you like to dance?"
Girl : "I don't care for this song and surely wouldn't dance with you."
Guy: "I'm sorry, you must have misunderstood me, I said you look fat in those pants"
17. I'm new in town, could I have directions to your house.
18. Fuck me if I'm wrong, but is your name Yolanda?
19. I love every bone in your body - especially mine.
20. You might not be the best looking girl here, but beauty is only a light switch away.
21. Hey baby,what's your sign? Caution, slippery when wet, dangerous curves ahead, yield?
22. I can't find my puppy, can you help me find him? I think he went into this motel room.
23. Wanna play Pearl Harbor?....Its a game where I lay back while you blow the hell out of me.
24. Your body's name must be Visa, because it's everywhere I want to be.
25. Can I buy you a drink, or do you just want the money?
26. I may not be the best looking guy here, but I'm the only one talking to you.
27. That shirt looks very becoming on you, but if I were on you, I'd be coming too.
28. I'd like to screw your brains out, but it appears that someone beat me to it.
29. Oh, I'm sorry, I thought that was a braille name tag.
1. If you and I were squirrels, could I bust a nut in your hole?
2. I'd like to wrap your legs around my head and wear you like a feed bag.
3. If it's true that we are what we eat, I could be you by morning!
4. How do you like your eggs: poached, scrambled, or fertilized?
5. I was about to go masturbate and I needed a name to go with your face.
6. You are so fine that I'd eat your shit just to see where it came from.
7. My love for you is like diarrhea, I just can't hold it in.
8. Roses are red.Violets are blue.I like spaghetti. Let 's go fuck.
9. Is that a keg in your pants? 'Cause I would love to tap that ass!
10. If your right leg was Thanksgiving,and your left leg was Christmas, could I meet you between
the holidays?
11. You remind me of a championship bass, I don't know whether to mount you or eat you!
12. Your parents must! be retarded, because you are special.
13. Could I touch your belly button.....from the inside?
14. I'm not too good at algebra, but doesn't U+I = 69?
15. How about we play lion and lion tamer? You hold your mouth open, and I'll give you the meat.
16. Guy: "Would you like to dance?"
Girl : "I don't care for this song and surely wouldn't dance with you."
Guy: "I'm sorry, you must have misunderstood me, I said you look fat in those pants"
17. I'm new in town, could I have directions to your house.
18. Fuck me if I'm wrong, but is your name Yolanda?
19. I love every bone in your body - especially mine.
20. You might not be the best looking girl here, but beauty is only a light switch away.
21. Hey baby,what's your sign? Caution, slippery when wet, dangerous curves ahead, yield?
22. I can't find my puppy, can you help me find him? I think he went into this motel room.
23. Wanna play Pearl Harbor?....Its a game where I lay back while you blow the hell out of me.
24. Your body's name must be Visa, because it's everywhere I want to be.
25. Can I buy you a drink, or do you just want the money?
26. I may not be the best looking guy here, but I'm the only one talking to you.
27. That shirt looks very becoming on you, but if I were on you, I'd be coming too.
28. I'd like to screw your brains out, but it appears that someone beat me to it.
29. Oh, I'm sorry, I thought that was a braille name tag.
I am not letting it go
Friday, March 17, 2006
For those of you who are wondering if I am goin to loose the game...
NO. You are very wrong.
I am not the type of person who will sit down and loose my game just like that!
NO. You are very wrong.
I am not the type of person who will sit down and loose my game just like that!
First Kiss Again
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
It felt like we were kissing for the first time.
Funny isn't it?
I walked out of the car with glee...
Funny isn't it?
I walked out of the car with glee...
Headache
Monday, March 13, 2006
A payback maybe?
I am having a headache of my life.
Headache and heartache doesn't mix well.
Too much pain.
On the other note, Tong Tong is going back to her mommy later today.
She must be missing her like hell.
I am suppose to bath her and all but the headache is pulling me back.
I can barely type.
But they said it is important to write down last few important moments of your life,
no matter how painful it is.
But I wonder who is gonna look at mine.
Not that anyone know of my existance.
I am having a headache of my life.
Headache and heartache doesn't mix well.
Too much pain.
On the other note, Tong Tong is going back to her mommy later today.
She must be missing her like hell.
I am suppose to bath her and all but the headache is pulling me back.
I can barely type.
But they said it is important to write down last few important moments of your life,
no matter how painful it is.
But I wonder who is gonna look at mine.
Not that anyone know of my existance.
OMGWTFBBQTNSCCB!!
Friday, March 10, 2006
I can't believe I'm getting into this again. That is a god damn boring place and I'm hating it so much I cannot imagine doing it for a good 30 hours or so...
Actually it isn't that bad lah... Just bad timing.
I'm missing BB so much and things like this kinda screw up everything! Bah...
Going back to Taping in another 3 hours and let's hope that Dad isn't going to blast those stupid motivational Chinese song again!!!!! Arrrgggghh!!! I know it meant a lot for him to listen to those motivational song but common... Same CD for a good 3.5 hours is just too bad lah daddy!! Not forgetting another 3.5 hours on the way back yo...!
Don't you that know your daughter, (that's me!) get headache listening to Chinese song???? Don't you know that? OMG... Help me, to help you! Help me, to help you!
Help me by not playing those CD and I'd help you by not vomiting everywhere in your car, kay? Or else it is gonna be a very very messy car. Heh... *burps* Eewwww...!!!
*Edit* Oh no, now they wanna stay till SUNDAY! That's like more 50 hrs in Taiping man!!!
Who stays in Taiping beyond 50 hours???!!
*End Rants*
Ahhhh... Tong Tong... Although this two words resembles each others but they mean the same.
Wakakakak... My white little poodle is Tong Tong, she's an old fuck man. Like really old.
We do not know how old is she excatly but estimated age is around 60 years old?
She's older then my mom!
Oh well, doesn't matter with that, as long as she is a pure darling!
I love her so the very much... Just like how much she loves me.
Tong Tong always waits for me in front of my bedroom door in the morning, with the hope that I will open the door and let her in! Hehee...
It's just too sad that I only wake up in the afternoon which means she would be waiting for hours and I really mean hourss... Everyday! o.O
Awww... Such a sweetie.
She's the first *ahem, person* I see every "morning" the moment I'm up!
That's what I call worth waking up for!
Ops... Looks like I won't be able to finish this post. I'd continue if I happened to feel like continuing. Not like anyone bothers anyway!!
Ciao and kiss BB. I'd see you tomorrow evening.
Missing you already. Muacks! *Heart*
Actually it isn't that bad lah... Just bad timing.
I'm missing BB so much and things like this kinda screw up everything! Bah...
Going back to Taping in another 3 hours and let's hope that Dad isn't going to blast those stupid motivational Chinese song again!!!!! Arrrgggghh!!! I know it meant a lot for him to listen to those motivational song but common... Same CD for a good 3.5 hours is just too bad lah daddy!! Not forgetting another 3.5 hours on the way back yo...!
Don't you that know your daughter, (that's me!) get headache listening to Chinese song???? Don't you know that? OMG... Help me, to help you! Help me, to help you!
Help me by not playing those CD and I'd help you by not vomiting everywhere in your car, kay? Or else it is gonna be a very very messy car. Heh... *burps* Eewwww...!!!
*Edit* Oh no, now they wanna stay till SUNDAY! That's like more 50 hrs in Taiping man!!!
Who stays in Taiping beyond 50 hours???!!
*End Rants*
Ahhhh... Tong Tong... Although this two words resembles each others but they mean the same.
Wakakakak... My white little poodle is Tong Tong, she's an old fuck man. Like really old.
We do not know how old is she excatly but estimated age is around 60 years old?
She's older then my mom!
Oh well, doesn't matter with that, as long as she is a pure darling!
I love her so the very much... Just like how much she loves me.
Tong Tong always waits for me in front of my bedroom door in the morning, with the hope that I will open the door and let her in! Hehee...
It's just too sad that I only wake up in the afternoon which means she would be waiting for hours and I really mean hourss... Everyday! o.O
Awww... Such a sweetie.
She's the first *ahem, person* I see every "morning" the moment I'm up!
That's what I call worth waking up for!
Ops... Looks like I won't be able to finish this post. I'd continue if I happened to feel like continuing. Not like anyone bothers anyway!!
Ciao and kiss BB. I'd see you tomorrow evening.
Missing you already. Muacks! *Heart*
Fighting for MySelf.
Monday, March 06, 2006
I can't think of anything to say anymore.
What I feel inside me, it is beyond anything I can express.
Don't know how to start, certainly do not know where to end it...
Life is so unfair sometimes. I guess it depends on how far we are willing to reach out.
If we arent willing to do anything and fight for our own rights, nothing is gonna be fair for ourself, really.
Maybe it is time for me to fight for what I deserved.
I wanna have what I've been having all this while.
Because you did that too...
And we'll see, who get it by the end of the day.
I never fight for what I deserved really, normally,
I'd just leave it to the god and hope to be able to recover from the pain I suffer.
But this time, things are gonna be different, because I know that I need to stand up for
what I want and what belongs to me.
Wish me luck y'all...
Wish me alot of luck...
What I feel inside me, it is beyond anything I can express.
Don't know how to start, certainly do not know where to end it...
Life is so unfair sometimes. I guess it depends on how far we are willing to reach out.
If we arent willing to do anything and fight for our own rights, nothing is gonna be fair for ourself, really.
Maybe it is time for me to fight for what I deserved.
I wanna have what I've been having all this while.
Because you did that too...
And we'll see, who get it by the end of the day.
I never fight for what I deserved really, normally,
I'd just leave it to the god and hope to be able to recover from the pain I suffer.
But this time, things are gonna be different, because I know that I need to stand up for
what I want and what belongs to me.
Wish me luck y'all...
Wish me alot of luck...