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Liu Xing

Born to Party, Forced to Work.

GoosebumpS

Thursday, April 28, 2005


No no no.
I ain't get any better.

I feel as lousy if it's not twice as lousy.
Dammit.

What's wrong with me really?

BB's leaving soon. No one's gonna be taking care for me very soon. Ohh... of coz my family will... but then again, they might not be able to coz no one else know I'm sick except for BB.

I keep getting goosebumps, can anyone tell me what kind of sickness is this? Goosebumps Snydrome? How do you cure this stupid sickness eh? Perhaps, I should go around killing 101 goose? Or perhaps you have a better idea? Like... Errr? What?? Tell me lar, fuck!

Sorry, Goosebumps Syndrome making me angry. LTF.

18 Hours After

Wednesday, April 27, 2005


I still feeling sick. Why?
I goggle it and realize that it might be the side effect of my miracle dose.

Damn I hate this. What is BB doin whilst I'm feeling so lousy?

I wonder...

Crappy Stick


Crap Stick Posted by Hello

Why am I talking about crap stick? Yeah Babe, you got it right, CRAP Stick!
All of us know, this reddish cute soft bouncing eatable stick is tasty when you serve it properly. I normally like it with my sushi and salad, best if serve cold or half frozen! It's cooked, you can practically eat it from the pack actually.

Well, yesterday BB and me went for our usual lok-lok session at Taman Segar; near Leisure Mall, just right infront of Maxis. They are usually called FAT MAN Steamboat on Tuesday. Someone else tend to take over on other days if I'm not mistaken. It's a cool rainy nite, perfectly great for lok-lok! We went to the stall and attacked our usual favorite items like pork balls, fu-peis, BB's with his see-ham [Mart told me it's called cockles], pork liver [ewww!!!], pork whatever, fish balls [Yeah, our fish have balls] and bla bla bla... The list normally goes on and on and on for BB. I'm rather simple with my food. I eat simple food.

When BB hand me the normal looking crab stick, I took it without much hesitation. Took the first bite, damn... This thing taste funny. Second bite... Argggsss... Seriously taste funny! I took the third bite and confirmed that the stupid crappy stick gone bad edi and guess what? I finished the whole thing edi!!! Damn!!!

Then I turn over to BB and asked him 'BB, did you realized that this crap stick done bad edi?' BB replied... 'Yah...' That was when I feel so fucking weird, why did BB pass that to me? I'm so damn particular about food I eat and when it taste funny, I feel so freaking sick and I can feel my stomach turning around. Oh god, I need to puke!

Still feeling a lil stoned, I requested ice cream so that I can feel better and forget bout the stupid crab stick. We went for our usual dosage of ice cream and rush back to car for my 'miracle dose' at the Connaught Giant. By 9.30pm, BB is super annoyed with my laid back cum super slow movement and he incited his usual fucked up look while driving around like a madman scaring me to hell. Sad to say, I get this almost everytime I see him. Fucked up look with madman driving style resulted from my laid back cum super slow movement is so freaking uncool k?

I NEED TO FEEL SAFE, DAMMIT!!!

Why can't people in this world understand the need to feel safe? Driving around like a madman doesn't make me feel safe! First of all, I have a madman next to me, it's already freaking scary. Next, I gotta bear with this stupid kiss ass driving style. Oh no!!! I'm gonna die soon. Hell, accident is the worst way to die. You die ugly!! A lot of blood... You loose body parts...

Then I suddenly remember someone. A close friend who make me feel so damn comfortable sitting in his car. Let's call him DD. DD doesn't drive like a madman. Even though when he is angry or fucked up. Infact, he doesn't get fucked up all the time. He is a matured guy. Not old, but matured. I miss feeling safe. I need to feel safe. It's not a feeling everyone can provide.

Back to BB... We reached Giant after 3-4 minutes, BB went down to buy the miracle dose for me. There isn't any available. Soon, I found myself caught in another madman driving series. 5 minutes later we are back to Taman Segar, looking for 24 hours clinic. BB went down after slamming his door [madman action], it took him about 8-10 minutes before coming back with my miracle dose. Brought a big bottle of mineral water and passed everything to me upon getting into the car and finally the hunt for my miracle dose ended with me swallowing it the moment after.

Upon swallowing the dose, BB suddenly turned into Prince Charming, he asked 'B.. You wanna Earthquake? Or another Mc D large cone?? Or perhaps the 7-11 Slurpy? I firmedly reject all the' suddenly' too good to be true offer and we head home.

[Damn, I'm getting bored blogging this, but what the hack...?]

BB took the long way back and soon, I started to give in and accepted his offer and we went for ice-kacang at home. Got the car parked, found available table, settled down and when we wanna order, the stupid waiter said that there isn't any ice-kacang, oke, fine... I decided to get a coconut.

This is when BB decided to begin his fucked up session again. God dammit!!! I had enough! It doesn't take very long for me to start crying too. I'm just so freaking dumbfucked by all this stupid matter that goes over and over again... If BB isn't 6' 5" I might have kicked him and slap him really hard. I'm just so fucking frustrated. Life can be better. It will be better if I stop seeing him.

He sent me home after both of us decided that enough is enough. Drop me infront of my door step, kiss good bye and great!!!! I'm home again!

It doesn't take long before the crappy stick start attacking me. I ran to the toilet - vomit every damn thing. My stomach feel so crappy, I can't walk much... I'm still feeling sick. Moral of the story? Don't eat crappy stick.

Nooo... I wanna feel better. I need to feel better.
Geezz... I gotta stop this crappy post.

Like that first...

Future of Unbelieable Agony

Every second counts, excruciating heartbeats, this agony hunt me as long as I live. Have you ever feel so painful, you wished you’ll die? No? I did… I was looking around when I came across Mart’s personal message on MSN.

His message is ‘Too many people are trying to meet the right person, instead of trying to be the right person’.

It’s new to me. Why can’t I be the right person instead of wanting BB to be the right person? I’ve never meet the right person throughout in my life. So, if they aren’t the right person, they must be the wrong person innit?

Hhhmmm… How wrong can a person be? What’s so wrong about them actually? Can they suddenly turn into the right person if I try to be the right person?

How do you define a right person? Are you currently attached with the right person? TELL ME...

Like that first...


BB like that first me a minute ago...
I went... WHAT? Like that first [LTF]??!!

So WTF is LTF?

It's stand for 'hai kam xin' in Cantonese.
Or perhaps; Till then... in English.

U normally use LTF to end a conversation.
In this case, BB use it to end our conversation on MSN.

Ok. Like that first...

Cass once told me


You know, life is like a journey, and on the day we die, that will be our destination, so where we arrive that day will depend on how we live our life, which matters the most to be, the journey is much more meaningful than reaching the destination.

People come and go in our life all the time, those are the people who once walked with us in our journey, it feels so much sweeter this way if u dun see it as a lost, but a companion which u cherish during that part of the journey.

Above mentioned are 'pretty' way of looking back and forward to the journey of our life.
Cass is a friend of mine who understand the amount of pain I'm going through.
We speak the same languages, we feel the same and we want to feel the same way. Explain why we click! I knew her a few months back and it didn't take her long to come forward and ask me one simple question.

Cass : What do you feel like doing now?
Me : I feel like sleeping and never wake up again.
Cass : I know what you mean. I feel exactly the same.

Allow me to go to bed now. Good night.

He is coming for me

Tuesday, April 26, 2005


While I'm posting right now, he is coming for me.
We aren't far from each another, but he have to go thru stupid jam for atleast an hour; sometimes an hour and half - to see me.

Now, you might ask, so?
I know it's not a big deal to you!
But it's hell of a big deal to me ok?

He woke up at 8 am to prepare for work; iron shirt, bath, brush his rabbit inspired teeth, comb hair, smile to the mirror, [8:10 pm, Hehehe... He just called!!! Telling me he's at Leisure Mall jorrr... Muacks BB!] ok, lets continue... pose abit, make some stupid face and so on... Hey... It's tiring oke?

Then he gotta fit in those 12 1/2 size shoe, after wearing his HUGE socks. Walk out and lock the door, take the lift and go get his car downstairs.

[8.28pm, Oh no, I gotta go!! BB is here!] To be continued...

Where is Liu Xing?


Sorry, I've not been updating my blog for a very long time!

Why, you wonder?
I tried, time after time. I went as far as opening my posting page only to end up closing it much later. Sheesh...

It's not that there isn't anything happening.
I'm around. Online almost every hour.
There isn't anything to do.
I don't work... but why did I not blog?

There are so much in my heart. So much, I do not know what to say.
How to say. I don't even know where to start.
I do not want to be labeled as someone who is suffering from long term depression.
Even though I am.

I hope to feel good as long as I can remember.
I also hope that every single needle that's hurting my heart will fall off and the wound will heal without leaving deep scar.

Why can't I feel better anymore?

The 100th

Monday, April 25, 2005


A number,
I will remember,
Forever.

B, it's a hundred!
We shared,
Together.

Extraordinary!
The hundred,
I remember.

I'm HOT or not?

Wednesday, April 13, 2005


HOT personality
You have a HOT personality. You love wearing revealing cloths and you couldn't live a second without your make-up. GO YOU !!!

Take the quiz: "Are you CUTE, HOT OR BEAUTIFUL ? FIND OUT."

I'm born in May


May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"

It's a Bloody Tears


Bloody Tears
your have bloody teared eyes. You eyes have seen much pain, either your pain or a friends pain. You cry with them, and for them. They are someone that has been there for you, no matter the situation, and you hate to see that person get put down, or talked about. Your a good friend to stay by their side and cry for them. But yourself you only cry in the darkness of your room, knowing that no one really cares about you, even thought thy really do.....

Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have?"

I need TLC

Monday, April 11, 2005



The TLC Meter Running Red Posted by Hello

But why is it running red? Can't it run green? or purple? or perhaps pink or something?
It's not that RED is my favorate colour, but come to think about it... RED is very well my favorite colour!

Damn, haha... I have not write for so long...
I do not know what to say anymore.

What can I say? BB is around, but he is not with me. This is driving me crazeee!
Why BB? WHY?

Hot in Herre

Sunday, April 10, 2005


It's gettin hot in herre,
So take off all your clothes...

I'm getting so hot, I wanna take my clothes off!!

I'm down with FEVER-lah! Huh..
HOT chick I am; today till the day I recover...

Purrr-fffeecccttt? Sure or Not?


You're Perfect ^^

You're the perfect girlfriend.
Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P
You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly.
You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed.
Hell, just hang out.
You're just happy being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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I am Mercurial??
adj 1: liable to sudden unpredictable change; "erratic behaviour"; "fickle weather"; "mercurial twists of temperament"; "a quicksilver character, cool and wilful at one moment, utterly fragile the next" [syn: erratic, fickle, quicksilver(a)] courtesy of www.dictionary.com

Now, how a mercurial gf does make a perfect gf? ERRETIC BEHAVIOR? That’s like the biggest disaster of all!!! YUCKS!!! Personally, I still think that I am gf from hell. HELL.


I am Loving…

adj : feeling or showing love and affection; "loving parents"; "loving glances" [ant: unloving] see also tender loving care. courtesy of www.dictionary.com


Hhhmmm… Perhaps? Hehehe…


I am Tomboyish!!

adj 1: used of boisterous girls [syn: hoyden(a), hoydenish; A high-spirited, boisterous, or saucy girl.] 2: used of girls; wild and boisterous [syn: hoydenish]


I have to agree with this… No doubt I am tomboyish! I can still remember how someone used to ask me…

Someone : “Can you behave like a decent women ar??!!”
Me : [Selamba-ly replied] “No!! I can’t!! This is the ORIGINAL me. Don't think you wanna the FAKE version ofme, anyway. It would be too sweet to taste! Anyway, TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT, KAY?!! Don't fucking complaint”


I never understand why guys keep on asking me to be someone else I am not. Why can’t they accept me for who I am? Don’t think I am that bad… I take things lightly, nothing can be too stressful, I am definitely “tidak apa” (don’t care) to everything under the sky, I don’t go “kan cheong” (panic) over much things… I don’t care, can’t be bothered…


Perhaps, after going thru so much, there isn’t much that excites me anymore…

NOTHING.


I am SAD because...



Grief

You are sad because of your grief.


Why are you sad?
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I am a Playful Kisser?


You are a Playful Kisser, you are probably the type
of person who goes with the flow, the only real
important for you is to be yourself and to keep
experimenting, if something feels good, you
should keep doing it, you like to have fun
while doing most things, good for you ;)


What kind of kisser are you?
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Argghhh... Play while kissing? Play what? Kekeke...

Me Dating? Not anymore!

Friday, April 08, 2005


My dating personality profile

I matched the following traits:

Stylish
You do not lack for fashion sense.
Style matters.
You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.

Outgoing
You can liven up any party.
You've got a way with people and have little difficulty charming your dates.

Sensual
You are not particularly shy when it comes to your sexuality.
You know what you like and do not feel inhibited.


Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked

1. Stylish
2. Outgoing
3. Sensual
4. Liberal
5. Romantic
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Adventurous
8. Big-Hearted
9. Intellectual
10. Traditional

My date match profile

I matched with men who have following traits:

Stylish
You cannot put up with someone who is lacking in style.
You want an original, someone with flare, someone with good taste.

Conservative
Forget liberals, you need a conservative match.
Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need.

Big-Hearted
You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind.
A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.


My Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked

1. Stylish
2. Conservative
3. Big-Hearted
4. Sensual
5. Outgoing
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Athletic
8. Adventurous
9. Practical
10. Romantic

Hey... Guess what?

It's blardy accurate when they list my main traits as Stylish, Out Going and Sensual.
I am not Super Stylish, but I can turn heads.
Hahaha... I like to be with someone stylish too.
BB is stylish and macho. Hehehe... He turn heads big tig time!!! Steal all me attention away!
Conservative guy? Ohh yeah...

They are damn fun!
Sensual... I know what I like best!

Take the Online Dating Personality Quiz at Dating Diversions

Path Lab Called

Monday, April 04, 2005


Path Lab called to set an appointment for second interview!!!

Yahhoooo!!! But got test leh... *Doink*

My BEST Sexual Skills!

Sunday, April 03, 2005


What Is Your Best Sexual Skill?
Name
Age
Sex
Sexuality
Flirting Skill Level - 79%
Kissing Skill Level - 61%
Cudding Skill Level - 57%
Sex Skill Level - 68%
Why They Love You You know how to push their buttons.
Why They Hate You You won't take your socks off.
This fun quiz by lady_wintermoon - Taken 2064297 Times.
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Track One

Friday, April 01, 2005


Interview at 11.30 am PathLab Corporate Office.
My second step back to reality world.

No joke. Not April Fool, k?