Bang!!! Bang!!! Wat The Fark?
Sunday, March 06, 2005At this point of time, I do not know if Im happy that BB coming back tonite. It feels really weird, mixed feeling.
It's fun to have BB around with me again... But then again, I wish he won't be back so that there isn't goin to be so much pain for me anymore.
As I "age", I realise that life is full with options. I'm sad because I choose to be sad. I have problem because I did not solve the problem. Currently, I'm jobless and that's because I did not look for job hard enough. However, I wonder what or where is my blardy driver? I lost the motivation for even drive out to the mall. Not to mention drive all the way to Bukit Jalil Aquatic Center just to swim for an hour or two.
Remember when I was still working, considering the amount of pressure was given by my organisation, I did manage well though it was really hard for me to do it all by myself. It was a one man show job, everything "pau kar liao". Salary did not match up to the amount of work I did. Haha... Come to think about it, when did anyone ever say that "I'm over paid!"
My day to day work wuz hard, felt like I was dump into the ocean and I was expected to live by the end of the day. Frankly, I died.
Remember the amount of responsible I have, the amount of shits I step on to in order to get my work done, how bad things went, when my immediate boss hate my dotted lines boss. I was bad. Im not suppose to listen to anyone of them. Decision made by both of them was affected by emotional distress. It was really unprofessional, really. But we all knows things like this happens everywhere, every organisation not to mentioned MNCs.
A china apek minded operator hold hand in hand with tall bold screaming ang mohs...
The result? Its like mixing a bowl of blardy curry mee, 2 bowl of white wine chicken soup, a glass of bali peng, a few mouthful of o-chien, 6 glasses of champagn, 1 large McD fries, a regular McD's coke and... 2 large cone sundae... voila!! two plastic bag full of disguisting vomit. Eeewww... It taste so bad, I wanna puke when I smell the stupid thing!!!
Oh no... I gotta go watch CSI!!! I'll be back later...
tuesday. March 8, 2005 2.15 pm
Yeah, I know I promised to continue the blog I stopped half way... but seriouslly...
I do not have the mood to do anything.
I cant be bothered. So... What the fark...
Let it be...
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1:19 PM
Sounds like you're going through a rough transition in your life, but then again, these are just writings and I believe that seeing the person's facial expression tells a lot more about what she's going through than reading her writings. For whatever it's worth, I hope you have a great week, with or without a job. And you're right, life is full of choices, but never forget that there is never a "neutral" choice in life. Take care and have a great week ahead of you, Liu Xing! :o)